Descent

you don't feel my heart wrenching,
the excruciating emptiness
that lies where i need you most

there's no other person that could do this to me
so thoroughly, so wholly, so entirely
the breaking of a fragile soul
shattered into a million pieces

i reach a shivering hand towards you
only to face dismissal
a desperate hug
a passionate kiss
nothing too much, or is it already over?

im not sure if i can put up the guise any longer
my mind has crumbled. the world a-broken
patch me up, there's still a hole inside,
made by you, its slow a-filling.

before i close my eyes for the final time,
let me say this , that i love you.

Personal Feelings

The drifting apart is stealthy, quiet, but always there, like the way a trickle of water flows through the ground to create cavernous passages underground over time. Occasionally, a rock or a stone might thin the flow, but in the end, it conquers the former, and continues its neverending path through.

3 years back, and 3 years later, will it make a difference? The shape of life is still the same. Yes, factors have changed, but somehow it all adds up to the same result. It is destined for failure.

Personal Feelings

I guess its true how people always say that it is only after you lose something that you treasure it.
The loss of something is best felt when you have your fingers on it, and then for that one moment, you just lose track of it because it is just always there, and it looses itself from your hands, and is gone forever.

Personal Thoughts

When things happen, you just keep thinking back on it, replaying it back in your mind.
When will someone invent a time machine, to go back to the past, to right all the wrongs, to redo things you regret you did..
Why cant we go back to the times when we were happier, when life was simpler, when I didnt have to worry about money.
The society today is just too realistic for me. Perhaps thats called growing up.

Personal Thoughts

当世界不再理你的时候，
当世间的一切不再有意义，
当你没有依靠的时候，
心里愁着什么，担忧着什么？

我愿随你游遍四海，
但并不要求你的什么。
只希望你能多爱自己一点，
让自己真正的快乐...